"Don't build sandcastles in the air," they said. Yet haven't we all built them high in the heavens with our hopes and dreams? And when our hearts were shattered, didn't we try to demolish the castle- only to rebuild it because it brought unbearable pain to tear it down?
SANDCASTLE DREAM:
I built a sandcastle high in the air
Surrounded by clouds of fluff;
It started as a dream but grew
As I slowly planned it out.
I made it big, I made it grand,
I made it intricate,
I made it colorful and rich
With fantasies so great!
Its walls were lined with memories:
Quotes, photos, and other things.
It had a huge library
Filled with stories of daydreams.
Every room showed a future,
Every corner had a moment.
I was happy simply seeing these,
Until my dream was stolen.
Then I realized I must tear it,
Wreck it part by part.
This glorious sandcastle I built
Will bring havoc to my heart.
I bring it down and watch it fall
Slowly inch by inch,
But then I unconsciously
Rebuild it- it’s a cinch!
So I build sandcastles in the air,
Just to watch them fall.
I build them up and tear them down
As they rip apart my heart.
I realize it’s not good for me,
And I’ve resolved multiple times
That this castle must be demolished;
Only then will I be fine.
But each time I try to destroy a room,
I am captivated by its contents-
The dreams and memories sweet and bitter-
And rebuild it all over again.
I cry, acknowledging just how futile
Is this tiny sliver of hope,
Not wanting to hold on,
But unable to let go.
So I am permanently trapped
At this construction site,
Swinging like a pendulum
Between wrong and right.
I make a wish upon a star
After hope was long gone,
Praying either the castle goes to hell
Or is soon filled with real life love.