Part Of Me Doesn't Know

Ah yes, well, you've been waiting around for that one guy for so long. You wanted to believe that if you waited long enough, eventually he'll come around. 

But deep inside, some part of you, however small, was slowly getting ready to let go. And after all this time, after all the times he's hurt you and all the pain you've been through, this part of you is ready to move on. 

But you still love him. The majority of you knows that, believes that, and holds on because of that.

But now finally, a part of you is asking earnestly, not half heartedly like in the past, is he worth it? Part of you has finally acknowledged that you deserve better, and is ready to let go.

Without a doubt, you know you still love him, though. A tiny sliver of hope is still making you want to hold on, to wait. But then, you know for a fact that he'll never acknowledge that he foolishly passed up on a gem like you.

Like this, your mind and heart will play a ping pong game when you reach that point where you have seriously begun to think it may actually be possible to move on.

Part Of Me Doesn’t Know:

Now all hope seems to be lost.

I don’t know when it had gone,

But it seems like

It’s taken too long.

Tried to say things that I felt,

That you made my heart melt,

But I guess nothing

Could help.

And it feels like it’s time at last

To let go,

Like my heart finally cannot take

Any more.

But part of me wants to move on,

Part of me just doesn’t know.

I could wait here in a blizzard,

Till my skin is iced over,

But you’d never turn, never,

And I’ll be waiting here forever.

A hundred guys

Could come and go,

But my heart loves

Only you, I know.

Wish there was some magic,

Some spell that I could cast.

But there’s nothing to be done

And I should get over you fast.

It feels at last

Like it’s time to let go,

Like all the glitter has settled

In an old snow globe.

But still I’m torn between

My thoughts and their flow

In a crazy, indefinite pattern,

Like a blizzard’s snow,

Because part of me

Wants to move on,

But part of me

Just doesn’t know.

Ah, my dear, how long will you wait? How much longer can you hold on to hope? 

How much more pain are you willing to put yourself through?